Mood:  a-ok

Haven't spoken to anyone today.  Been cleaning and just thinking about "what next?"  What next for me professionally more than anything.  A lot of things on my plate right now possible job change, again! Wanting to write again.  What does GOD have up his sleeve for me right now?  I mean seriously I feel like I'm entering an early 30's professional crisis. 

 Don't know if I still have "it" writing I mean, haven't done it in so long.  My brain is everywhere...when do we get to a place in our lives where we find peace.  Peace with past, able to embrace the present and welcoming of the future.  At almost 31 I have a better sense of who I am although there are still many roads to travel many lessons to learn.  But I feel less obliged to please others, is that a part of entering your 30's.  Caring ess about what people think and more about how I feel and want.  Focusing more on a sense of family...being surrounded by those I love and care about, making sure the one person in my life is someone I think of as my king and regards me as his queen.  I beleive I closer to that than I sometimes care to admit to but only time will tell.