Mood:  happy

I'm speaking with my honey he is visiting his daughter in KC, MO.  She is in a play that he is absolutely raving about.  I love when he spends time with his girls.  He is filled with so much love and happiness it is wonderful to feel his energy even over the phone.

You ever been in place in your life when your happiness derives from those around you?  Their happiness fills you up with such joy that it doesn't matter how you were feeling a minute ago.  That is what he just did for me.  I feel blessed to be in his life right now because moments like this fill me up with such pleasure. 

Mood:  chillin'

Ok so this is take two for me on this blog business spent the last hour writing, inspired and just feeling sassy because I'm about to publish my first piece, for the first time mind you, on a blog...so I hit "publish" and like a child I wait with anticipation to see my first blog posting live and nothing so I wait some mo' and nothing again.  So I thought let me log out and maybe it will appear like magic...HELL NO it doesn't appear all I see is blank space waiting to be filled up with characters that make up words...but nothing appears.  So you'll know I'm pissed off...everything I wrote gone...what a deflating feeling to have poored your soul into words and have nothing but blank space looking back at you. 

How disappointing especially for me since I have not written in over a year...my biggest disappointment is just that when you write you can't get back all that you felt in that hour and put into words as it is gone and can never be retrieved.  Sure I can rewrite it but i will never capture it quite like I did then.  The ideas I can certainly capture but the exact words that manifest that emotion I felt in that very minute can never captured again.